Apropos of my weight journey, I thought this was very interesting. Eckhart Tolle writes about living with your painbody -- energy that exists within you from old painful emotion that you haven't worked through. When you live through your painbody, everything is colored by your old emotion. The answer is to live in the present -- easier said than done, but something to strive for.
I'm reading Geneen Roth's Women Food and God, and it makes a very similar point. Indeed, most of the things I read that talk about how to feel better about yourself and your life make the same point, including all of the Eastern theology/meditation texts.
And so I will focus on the present and try to live here and now. Jennifer